Sucky day

Today was one of those days I wish I could re-do or erase from my memory. I mean things went south a lot and I kinda f-ed up at work. Even sent my boss an email about it. (didn’t want to ruin her weekend with negative things). Now I’m pretty sure she will call me on monday and,…well….it’s not going to be a pleasant phonecall.

I try to see the silver lining on a dark cloud in every bad situation. And so am trying with this one. Maybe I was meant to learn something with this? Because I believe everything happens for a reason. And the day I had made my hands shake and made me feel really sick. Still have them both, not so much as before but still.

On a good note, it is such a good and sunny day here. The sun always makes me happy, or at least feel better. I got to wear my new sunglasses.

I can also say that the chocolate I ate didn’t make me feel worse.

Now I’m in my bed, watching things from my laptop.


Today happens to be one of those days where everything I do ends up being wrong. It feels like I can’t do anything right. I think some of it is because I’m slightly ill still and some of it lack of experience.

And the feeling I get when I find out I messed up sucks. The thing is I know once it’s made I can’t undo it, but still makes me feel bad.

I think, with mistakes, you just have to put them on behind you and learn from them. Do better the next time. And I think with the day I am having, I have a lot of making up to do. And at work – need to be really good and observant. Just to show them they made the right decision when they offered me this job.

Don’t you just hate those days?!.

Changing yourself and the world.

Nietzsche has said “The snake which cannot cast its skin has to die. As well the minds which are prevented from changing their opinions; they cease to be mind.”

People change all the time. You are not the same person you were yesterday and tomorrow you will not be the same as today. Things happen. You make mistakes and learn from them. Some of them are bigger than others. These mistakes will change you.
Some changes are made willingly and some not. Some people want to improve. They may want to something different about themselves or they may want change the world. I bet most of you have seen or maybe even read a selfimprovement book. I have. A fiew actually. One was “The Monk who sold his ferrari” by Robin Sharma. It was about a man who was living a successful life being a lawyer. One day he had an heartattack. After that he had a spiritual crisis. He then traveled to tibet and lived with the monks. He learned how to be more thankful for the thinkgs he had. How he needed to take time for himself. I think it was a good book. Makes you think. At the end of it, I had a question for myself. Do I need to have some big shakedown in order to change things about me that I really think should be different.
I think It is a new and growing trend. Finding youself and changing things about youself. About you thinking. Looking after your spiritual being.
There are also people who want to change something about the world. Even Gandhi said be the change that you wish to see in the world. You can moan about how some things should be different. In the end just talking about it will not have any influence. The change has to gome from someone. So changing youself may in the end be the push needed for that certain thing.
Accept that change is inevitable. Adjust. Thats all.

Mistakes made

When it gomes to mistakes made I have developed my view on things. First of all this awesome song Dappy – No Regrets.

Like everybody else, I have made my own share of mistakes. Beggining with trusting someone I shouldn’t have and ending with making bad decisions. There was a time in my life when I felt so bad about my mistakes. I really wanted to have a timemachine to go back and change something I did or said. How I overreacted sometimes. But I have gome to realise that you can’t change your past. Only thing you can do is learn from your mistakes. So that you wouldn’t to that again.

Some mistakes might even end up teaching you. They make you the person you are. I believe that every one of us have certain mistakes we have to do in our lives. And it is better to get them out of the way when you are young, rather than when you already have a family and a job.

In my mind it is determined who we are supposed to become. And we follow a road to reach that person.

There is no point in regrets. We all make mistakes. Those who says thay haven’t made any are either lying or not living their lives.