It has been a while since I last wrote anything in here. Work has been exhausting and I just haven’t had the energy to write anything.
I have a week off from work and as I do not want to see my workplace during that week, I thought it might be a good idea to look for other gyms around my area. As at the moment I workout in the same building I work. So I made a plan to go to this gym and my gym partner even said she would consider going to the other gym with me.
This morning I woke up and felt ready to go. Long story short, my gym partner didn’t feel like going to the gym. So I thought okay, I will go alone. When I got in front of the building I felt nervous and anxious. I have no idea why. Felt like I was about to do some kind of a test or something. And,..guess what,..I didn’t go in.
I have no idea why this keeps happening. I go to a new gym alone and I am afraid to do anything else beside cardio. Funny part is that I have been working out quite a lot and feel stronger than ever. So, why do I get so uncomfortable anytime I have to go to somewhere else.
A while back I went to this meetup. These local youtubers who I follow had this event. Since I didn’t find anyone to go with, I decided to go alone. I felt so uncomfortable and awkward. Everyone knew everybody and I felt like I was crashing someones private gym party.
I know the only way I can get over this is I must but myself in these situations. At the beginning I may feel out of place, but I know the more I go, the better it gets. So, I have given myself a task, this week I have to go to this gym, I did not go today.